Well my sweetheart, have just returned from our 1st break abroad without you. Couldnt go Cyprus as far too many happy memories so decided on Majorca. Needed to get away just the 3 of us. To say it was hard would be a understatement...... Our little Angelo cried when the alarm went off at 3am, on the day we were due to leave saying he didnt want to go without you as I did. That first night in our hotel in Majorca he cried himslef to sleep before we all kissed your photograph which is always with us. The boys did you proud honey, Angelo is now a good swimmer, Andeas finished off where you left off last year in regards to his swimming, he is now as you used to call him, your little nemo! Andreas made friends at the hotel and was going clubbing with them from midnight onwards,giving me lots of restless nights until he came back. Thats something you should have been doing! He would tell he would have loved going with you and chatting up the girls together! As for me babe, my large sunglasses hid my tears watching other families by the pool, with you always in my thoughts, and wishing there was a 4th sunbead with you right there next to me. Its 8 months today since you left us . Time that goes by does not make the pain any less.. xxxx